Sometimes a Circle Feels Like a Direction

I had a bit of a set back, what a bummer.  I was sure that drilling holes through my spine would be a cake walk.  Done and done...right?  So, that concept didn't exactly pan out so whatcha gonna do?  Im happy to say I'm feeling better again, I've stopped taking the pain meds but now I'm nervous, I'm shaking.... How can I insure that I have blue skies ahead?  I staggered down the road to see the neighbors today, no problems.  I'm still crazy slow.  I have only treadmilled very lightly and I'm taking it easy.  That doesn't seem like a good long term solution though. I want to ride my horses, although I am seriously considering teaching them to drive, and walk like a normal person.  I want to be back to 100%.  Ok, I would settle for 95%. 

As a result of my above whine fest I decided to go back to physical therapy.  I'm going to a different guy, the one who actually works with my neurosurgeon's office.  My first appointment is the 21st.  I'm sad because this is expensive and I'm still in insurance deductible mode and it's an hour away.  I just didn't feel like my first PT guy listened to me though and in 5 years I don't want to be saying..."why wasn't it important enough to take care of...why, oh why didnt I go?" So in fear for future me, I'm sucking it up and paying the money and spending the time and burning my vacation time to go do this.  

It sounds terrible right?  What dreaded thing has happened?  Well, calm your worried mind my friend.  I did overdo it but I learned and I am listening to my body, like I should so I'm feeling better!  Now though, the muscles feel tight and nearly spasm at times and getting out if bed or off the floor is not graceful but I'm not in terrible pain.  Well, sometimes but only for a brief moment, it quickly passes!  But I am annoyed at being slow and I want to address this and the stiffness. I don't know what I should be doing...I need clarity and direction.  So, physical therapy may help.  So we will see!